I'm tired, and lonely, and angry, and feeling out of control. The only reason I'm not hungry is because eating seems to be the only vice left. Are vices necessary, if I manage to get rid of this last vice of eating, will I find others to fill the void? I don't want to return to the old vices, I don't know how living life without vices is possible. I want to be a "good person" and I've given up on being "normal" and I'm not strange enough to be "legally insane".